HANDS OFF IN TEXAS

All of a sudden, half the population of Texas is criminalized, the male half. Masturbation has raised its ante from sin to crime. Two years in prison for it. What's a cowboy gonna do? Gives new meaning to "The eyes of Texas are upon you." Nowhere to run. Nowhere to hide. Texans are also Americans (sorta), so I suppose the new law will be observed the way we Americans observe the law, don't get caught. Better not be suspected of it either. Like WC Fields might say, Where there's smoke there's fire, boys. Boy Scouts is now a criminal organization in Texas. Will it be the scoutmaster's duty to listen at the tents on field trips in the night? Will boys rat on each other or make it up about somebody? "He beat off. I heard him do it." Will Texas make concentration camps for teenage boys with dormitory lights turned on all night? No, it won't do any of that. When a population becomes criminalized, they turn into a unit unto themselves with a code where nobody rats on anybody. The boys and men of Texas will soon have the criminal code among themselves where rats die. It kinda puts preachers, prosecutors and judges in a position of hypocrisy too, as well as the entire state legislature, given a few intelligent exceptions, women. Them too. The state of Texas is officially a prison. Everybody in the state is a criminal. Australia started as a criminal colony and Texas has evolved (the E word in Texas) into a criminal colony.

The Dixie Chicks come to mind saying at a show in London they were ashamed of being from the same state W Bush was from. The Bush administration of epic scoundrels shut them off the corporate media. Their cds sold all the more and their concerts sold out. I also can see that half the population of Texas is embarrassed by the republican chicanery going on there in full control. Police state is not about majority control, but controlling the majority. Wendy Davis, the woman who kept the filibuster going vs Rick Perry, is now elevated to a degree of respect. She's being pointed at as potential candidate for governor. Obama won his presidency because he was the only democrat who voted against going into Iraq. That elevated him to president. Hilary voting for the invasion was a bleep in her campaign. She let down a great portion of her fan base when she went along with the Bush Junta. She lost my attention altogether. She did it for political expediency and it bit her in the ass. The republicans would likely be more vicious to Hilary than they are to Obama. And Dufus Sarah Palin is back. Now she's quitting the republican party cause it aint dumb enough to her satisfaction. Alaska must not have been dumb enough either. Nor Faux news. She represents us to the rest of the world. They look on and laugh. We non-parrots in America look on and weep. Weep because our country we grew up singing Tis Of Thee over, and want to believe in, has gone to shit before our eyes. We know how and we know why. We know we didn't do it. We know there's nothing we can do about it. Obama has shown us for sure by now that he is not on the side of We The People. The black people have known he was not with them from soon after he started.

That's it for the review of the news as comedy. Maybe I'm paying too much attention to Jon Stewart and Bill Maher. More than likely not enough. They keep me laughing better than any sitcom. They are slap-stick. How else can a day's news be looked at over the last thirty-three years? We don't need Faux news to make it even more ridiculous unto overkill. A few times I've set out to look at a Faux news clip for humor and turn it off every time before the first minute is up. The steady stream of arrogance turns me off right away and the bullshit finishes me off. Can't even listen to their voices. An entire tv network that is openly racist on the one hand, and on the other, a business woman who said nigger 27 years ago is crucified without any regard for freedom of speech, innocent until proven guilty, etc. The most racist nation on earth convicting by way of scandal a Southern woman for saying nigger. What else can we call this but comedy? The comedy of stupid, like Jackass the movie. An openly racist supreme court, no problem. I use the nigger word here in defiance of bullshit correctness, parrotry to television. I'm sympathetic with the black cause and I know they don't give a rat's ass. They call me a white emeffer and the C-word, cracker. Nobody comes down on them. Reverse racism is ok. None of that matters at all. I use the word because I'm told not to for reasons I see are bullshit. I use it knowing it is a key word for instant scanning of online documents, like bomb.

The movie Brazil is the image in my mind for police state. It's not about the country Brazil. It happens in the UK. In the beginning, a man and woman in recliners in their flat watching the telly. A chainsaw cuts a circle in the ceiling, a swat team drops down, binds the man and hauls him out. Whoops. Wrong address. Oh well. Let's get on with it. I must see it again soon. As far as I can see, everything we're told by government and media is false, so predictably that when they tell us something straight up we take it for a smoke screen. All through my lifetime the American people have been called sheep in cartoons and editorials. I used to see the sheep grazing in meadows. Now I see the sheep at the stockyards herded and lined up for their last breath, praising and thanking Jesus for keeping Texas free from masturbation. Masturbation amounts to pre-emptive abortion there. If they can't stop abortions, they'll stop them before they start, forbidding men to spill their seed on the ground or into the toilet, whichever. Abortion of the sperm cell. Too ludicrous to even mention, really. The absurdity is that it's a nineteenth century law in 2013. 2001 is in the past and we're drifting into super-imposed poverty throughout the once prosperous land since the Bank took our resources and control. Our powerlessness is expressed through vampire and zombie movies like in the 1950s during the Eisenhower recessions. At least in this time we're able to see the comedy too, somewhat.

 

 

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TOLERANCE INTOLERANCE

silent sign by tj worthington


Again, ongoing problems with website. I write a sentence and the computer locks. I wait and wait, it starts again, I write a sentence and computer freezes again. I've learned that when it happens to stop and not force myself against it, because it turns into a cussing frenzy and makes me crazy. The only reason I've got this far is that it has stopped. When it starts I click on "send feedback" and tell the anonymous entity that sees the feedback the "interface" is not working again. Anonymous Entity never responds to questions. Wait a few hours and it's ok. I get so tired of that I think of letting this project go. I see in a baby a year and a half old a humorous version of my own behavior. She cannot figure something out, like screwing a cap onto a bottle, she tries until she sees she can't do it, puts it down and the thing is no longer of interest to her. She goes off to something else. That's how I do. It takes all my self-will to continue. Attempted to start writing a few minutes ago. I decided to go take a nap. Attempted it again after just a few minutes and it worked this time. Whatever.

An hour or so ago I saw an interview somebody had put on facebook of Colin Powell with Bill O'Reilly. I couldn't watch it all. Again, Powell was the easy target setting himself up for republican refudiation of his credibility pointing at his negritude on the air. Powell called O'Reilly on calling him an African American all the time. It didn't faze O'Reilly. Fact is, Powell is Jamaican by birth. Maybe he's an African Jamaican, or a Jamaican American, or in Powell's way of seeing it, an American. That won't do, however. It's not divisive enough. It doesn't separate him from the white audience. Of course, O'Reilly is seeing a nigger and Powell is playing through it. Sometimes I go to these odd videos from Faux News for comedy, to hear yo-yos O'Reilly, Hannity, Beck, Coulter, Ingraham, and almost always turn it off before it's a third of the way into it. It is not easy for me to listen to that mind. It's not even glossed over. It's plain stupid. I wonder about what kind of morons they are. It doesn't seem rational to me that people would have a talking head job on tv and take such pride in ignorance and deception.I didn't realize such ignorant people could keep high-profile well-paying jobs. Sarah Palin, not the dumbest of them all, was put aside. This guy Paul Rand is showing himself to be a Sarah Palin wannabe. He's really bad off. It comes out his mouth every time he speaks. Like saying to Hilary Clinton at the "hearing," "if I were president, I'd fire you." I saw a clever meme on facebook that captioned Hilary saying, "I stopped listening when you said, if you were president."

I have a problem with calling people stupid and the frequency of its use in the time of online chat and name calling in comment boxes. In the first several times of my problems with the blogger website, I'd click on send feedback and wallow in the freedom to let whoever was reading feedback have it. Finally, I caught on that it was somebody at the other end doing the best that can be done attempting to take the kinks out of the program and make it a better experience instead of worse. I fell into that tendency with a computer to regard the anonymous person at the other end an asshole, moron, stupid, idiot, dork, words that are the most popular on the internet. I've stopped myself from using those words, except where there is no other word. I've come to see the use of these words an invalid attitude toward the unknown other. Of course, the reason the words are so abundant online is you don't know the person at the other end, both ways. Nobody is going to knock on your door and when you open it kick your ass. This is what we become when there are no repercussions to our actions. It's nothing to be proud of, but many are.

I've never heard conservatives define conservatism in a manner that satisfied me, nor have I heard any self-definition by liberals that satisfies what I see. I've finally found that both can be broken down to tolerance. The conservative agenda has to do with intolerance. The liberal agenda has to do with tolerance. Faux News is nothing but intolerance spewing round the clock. Intolerance is for all except ignorant white men. I suppose it is a good thing to have Faux News because it brings out the ignorance in the American white man belief system. White man has presented himself before as rational thinking and in charge. Since Limbaugh, you want to find out what white men are thinking, listen to him. He's paid $4,000,000 a year to be the voice of the white man. Before Limbaugh, these people did not have a voice. Now that they do have a voice, I'd like them to shut up. I'm glad I never fell for the comfort of ignorance among white men. This is only one of many reasons I embrace my self-created Outsider status.

I'm recalling someone I once knew who kept a sticker on his car's rear window that said TOLERANCE. I had to laugh every time I saw it. This is the most intolerant individual I have known. All I could figure was he put it there to remind himself of tolerance since he had so little. He was very tolerant where the latest cool thing to be tolerant about was somebody else's race or sexuality, indignantly tolerant. It's very close to indignant piety. The sticker's colors faded, it dried and curled up. Eventually it fell off after several years. Every time I saw it was a reminder of his intolerance. That he's tolerant of black people and gay people, doesn't mean he's tolerant of the people around him. They're just ideas. I've not found that he likes anyone in his world, that being the people of the county and the American people. He thinks of them like he thinks of me, too ignorant to bother with. After blowing his mind with LSD in the Sixties, he spends his life in superiority to everyone around him. He only looks down on others from way high up where you can see the curve of the earth. Not one is good enough to rate his attention. His wives have moved in, freaked out, and left, like frogs dropped into boiling water. After 30+ years of knowing him, I never saw his superiority bear out. It comes down to he is himself and everyone else is not. So he's got the goods on everybody.

Hearing him harangue on the ignorance of the people of this county left my mouth hanging open. He has lived here as long as I have. I don't see the mountain people like that at all. I've found the mountain people so incredibly intelligent they humble whatever intelligence I may have. The time he told me of his contempt for the mountain people, I wanted to say something to give him a new way to look at the people around him, but realized this was an expression of his attitude toward life, just like his absence of tolerance was his attitude toward life, as well. When I look at his intolerance of all but self, it bespeaks an ego so profound, evidently so overwhelming to him he worships it. He loves his ego. He's the only one that knows anything, wherever his, whoever he's among. He's always right and everybody else is always wrong. He told me he can only tolerate being among these ignorant mountain people nine months of the year, has to get away for three months to another part of the world where the people are not as ignorant as here. My tolerance of him dried up and fell away like the sticker on his car.

I've not seen him in over a year and don't want to see him or hear his voice again. I don't appreciate the people I know to be true human beings held for ignorant, incompetent and stupid. Those are words I'd use on him, but not any others I live among. I've tried for years to tolerate him, but a year ago something inside snapped. That day he was being especially contrarian at lunch and I called him on it. He got up and walked away and I thought: Wow! That was easy! I could have done that years ago! After a year of his absence from my life, it makes me joyous to think of the span of time getting longer every day. He'll never call me again and I'll never call him. In the past I had enjoyed his three month absences. It was never good to see him again. I've not seen his car in town so I'm guessing he's gone away to someplace in the rest of the world where he accords everybody there his intellectual equal. I've never let on, but I don't see his intellect anything to crow about, let alone be proud of. What he calls his intellect I call his ego. I don't even like to use his name anymore. I asked him once, just to be a bitch, if he put that sticker on his car window to remind himself of tolerance. No. He doesn't believe there is enough tolerance in the world. There's certainly none in his world.


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