Monday, January 4, 2016


nose to the ground
Early afternoon I went out the door with dog and new walking stick. She saw me pick up the stick and flinched slightly. It told me something about her past and her insecurity. I assured her the stick was not for hitting dogs. We don't do that here. I would use it to hit a dog attacking my dog friend, only then. Dog protects me. I protect dog. She's not yet saved me from a bear attack, but she makes it possible to walk in the woods again without concern for four-legged surprises. Dog would smell and see it before I would, and bark aggressively, alerting whatever it might be to leave primate alone. Primate has a ninja dog blood brother, in this case sister, who will die to protect him. The barking alerts me to look for what it is dog sees, most often a twig shifting in near distance, maybe a squirrel running for a tree after seeing a dog. She bounded with joy walking toward the road. She knew we were not going to the car, but beyond the car into walking stick world, paradise for dog's inquiring nose.
rhododendron walking stick
The wood for the stick came from an old rhododendron in the woods behind the barn, dead for so many years the wood cracked from the drying process. The bark was paper thin, loose and falling off. The bark under the exterior bark was fused to the wood structure. This layer of bark I carved off with the pocket knife. It takes several hours to carve the bark away and round the tips. The end that is the handle needs to be smooth as glass for walking comfort, sometimes in the palm of the hand. Also rounded the tip that touches the ground to inhibit splintering and splitting.  The wood has been dead for so many years the rotting process had begun. Rotting starts in rhododendron with black lines like drawn with an extra-fine-line pen running in abstract patterns with the wood's flow lines and some discoloration in abstract absence of pattern. It has the strength of the living wood, as dry as the wood can be before decay sets in. I think of the abstraction of lines and discoloring something like the patterns retained from memory of experience in the soul, called impressions and sanskaras. Mental impressions, mind tattoos, experience carried from lifetime to lifetime. This is my stick for the rest of this lifetime.
dog head and water flow
In my own personal symbolism, the stick represents the journey of the soul. I've never used a walking stick in the years I roamed the mountains following a dog. In this time of advanced age, I'm not as firm on the feet as I one time was. I walked over varieties of ground with the stick to get a feel for handling it over different terrain. It is good for balance, extra good for climbing a steep hill and walking down a steep hill, good for a sideways slant. The stick is a good brace for jumping from one big rock to another, a hand to hold. In the past, a walking stick became a nuisance I carried over my shoulder soon after starting the walk. I'm slower now and not so lithe on the feet. A walking stick makes a good assist. It is good to lean on during a break, standing still watching dog play in the water, run over the ground, up hills, over trails of the night people, following her nose like it's attached to a meandering rail.
lady in red
Early in the walk, I came upon a place to approach with attention to foot placement. Went within to my "center," just below the navel, focused balance there, instead of in my head, and balance came so naturally so quickly it felt something like shifting gears. I took an interest in photographing water flow over small rocks, over sand, over big rocks, channels of flow, looking to catch the lines of flow on the water's surface like the continually changing flames of a fire. Walking in the woods makes dog deliriously happy. It lifts primate's spirit as well. We will take longer walks as time goes by. Winter is a good time for walking in the woods. The serpents sleep in hidden places. I like not being concerned about stepping on a snake. Another thing I like about walking with a dog is they find snakes first. The dog alerts me to the snake and we walk around the snake. Dog's senses are hyper-alert out in the woods. I'm enjoying seeing a dog run free in forest, a dog only familiar with city life on a leash. It's how I felt in the beginnings of living in the Blue Ridge, let off the leash. I'm used to it by now, it's the grain of my life. Dog is refreshing foggy memory of wonderment in the first years of walking over these mountains. I review my own awe in the time of discovering these mountains were the terrain of my spiritual path of liberation from self by way of understanding, attitude toward life, allowing, and mere being.  

the same place maybe 3 seconds apart

photos by tj worthington




  1. What a beautiful post TJ. I just learned of your crossing over and realized that these were probably the last words you wrote. I'm so grateful for getting to know you through your writings, your art and your pictures. You will be missed my friend.

  2. I wish I met Tj in person, but we got along so well online for a few years. He loved Shadow since last August and called him my Ninja. I wish we walked his mountaibs with out dogs and chatted about hillbillies, hippies, and punks, then listened. Listened to the mountains and read their story beneath our feet. Good bye, friend. Your friend, Hyphen

    1. Oops, meant to write I wish we walked his mountains with our dogs and chatted about hillbillies, hippies, and punks, then listened.

      Loved his writing and minimalist art, too.

  3. So sorry I never met you, TJ. You inspire me to leave the city and return to something more real, and for that and many other things, I thank you. Sending you love.

  4. So sorry I never met you, TJ. You inspire me to leave the city and return to something more real, and for that and many other things, I thank you. Sending you love.

  5. So glad I got meet and get to know you TJ. We were not close friends but we were friends and for TJ that was all that mattered. You will be missed. Godspeed dear friend.

  6. Loved your spirit and your heart and your gentle way of writing what is in all of our souls. Rest well, gentle man. You were loved.

  7. "This is my stick for the rest of this lifetime."

    Haunting, prophetic... I have only been a member of this group for a short time, but I loved T.J's writing. May you walk beautiful trails wherever you are with no further need of a walking stick. RIP, my gentle friend I never met - though I so wish we had. Xoxo

  8. I already rested easier knowing you were just down the road, TJ. Thank you for being you and being a kind neighbor. Peace always ~

  9. I too am bereft that you have left us--but surely you are off the leash and among the stars and your influence will always be with me.

  10. I miss reading your blog in the morning before heading to work in the city. Your words always grounded me in the best way. Rest in peace, my friend.

  11. Still think of you.

  12. I miss seeing the lights at TJ's cabin when I pass at night. I live just up the Waterfall Road. The lights are out now at Tom Pruitt's and at my mother's little cabin. I miss them all. I wish we could have had them all a few more years.